My Grades

Grade update!!! Well another semester over with and 3 more grades handed out. this time around, and sorry for being a little vulgar, I made these classes my bitch:). three A+'s again which brings my gpa up to a never before seen number in my school life...a 3.87. If it wasnt for that one art class I would have a 4.0 right now. Stupid art teacher and his stupid drawing skills cost me my 4.0. Oh well, just gotta deal with it I guess...or make sure that he never draws anything ever again...Duh Duh Duuuuuhhhhnnn:) Sorry if I sound a little odd, I am crazy tired so this may all sound weird as hell so bare with me. Just wanted to give a quick update anyway. I may start doing some video blogging, if I even can on this site, so be prepared for that mistake. lol. Well, Im gonna go back to sleep now and leave you all knowing that I am just that much better than you.....except for Karlie cause she bought a new house...but other than that...well, I guess also Kevin cause he's getting married, Mom and Dad make way more money than me so thats out....ok you know what, your all just awesome and I bet you all think your cool and shit, but know that there is one thing I have that you all never will................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................ Damn!

Hahaha...ok I really need to sleep before permanent damage happens.

My Pessimistic Return

Well, as you all know I try and keep these blogs more on the upbeat and humorous side, but sometimes I just can't hide the pain. Recently I had started to become a completely different person; one who would actually hope for the best instead of expecting the worse...at least I thought I was changing. Apparently I was just tricking myself into believing that because today I was reminded why I have always been so pessimistic toward, well...everything. Today was supposed to be the first V-Day that I wasn't alone, but that plan was shot to hell this morning. It was embarassing enough to be told that the date wasn't going to happen, right in the middle of a crowded coffee shop, but the fact that I was holding a single flower while it all happened seemed to make it that much worse. She didn't give me a reason, but at this point I just wanted to leave so I walked out and gave the flower to another woman and I went to work. I mean, I was just getting to that point where I seemed almost...happy. I went against all my reason of expecting the worst so I am never dissapointedand this is what happened...I get Crushed and it hurts that much worse because for once I was hoping for the best. Never again. I shall return to my pessimistic ways and never look back and as for dating, screw that. Someone I know really well has got it right...No commitments...No attachments...not anymore. Time to put back on my armor and never take it off again.

Sorry for the depression, but it was bound to happen. Maybe soon I'll have something good to write.

My Valentines Day Thoughts

Firstly is there actually anyone who likes this holiday? I know single people hate it, but it would seem that even couples hate it as well. I think it is because they practically have to buy something for their significant other in order to avoid the awkward situation of not getting anything for them on V-Day. What you don't give them anything, but they give you something...that would not be good times for anyone. I think it just puts too much pressure on both people to spend money on shit neither of them need....or want sometimes. And what about first time dates on V-Day? The stress of trying to decide whether or not to get your date anything. You might not believe it, but a lot of girls probably just find it creepy if a guy brings even flowers on a first date. Thats a fact...kind of. I asked every girl I knew if they would find it a bit creepy and most said yes. This shed some light on why girls thought I was kinda creepy in High school. The dozen roses inside of the girls locker on V-Day was apparently a bad choice...who would have thought. Another problem I see with V-Day is that it represents something that should be done everyday. If you are lucky enough to have someone in your life then you should be showing them how much you care everyday of the year. There is no need to have a holiday for it. Personally though I really don't have much against V-Day even though, I think I've been alone for every single one I've been alive for. Even though I did mention some things I dislike about it I would have to call myself a hypocrit sense I know if I had a girlfriend on V-day I would fall right in with the entire ordeal. The term hopeless romantic comes to mind...anyone I worked with at TJ's could vouch for that:). There is a sense of hope this year though considering that it will be the first V-Day that I will not spend alone. Oh thats right, I have a date on V-Day. I guess having hope really does pay off sometimes. Yes mom, apparently having optimism can change things:). I'm ready for the awkward situation on Valentines Day and I wouldn't have it any other way.