Well, as you all know I try and keep these blogs more on the upbeat and humorous side, but sometimes I just can't hide the pain. Recently I had started to become a completely different person; one who would actually hope for the best instead of expecting the worse...at least I thought I was changing. Apparently I was just tricking myself into believing that because today I was reminded why I have always been so pessimistic toward, well...everything. Today was supposed to be the first V-Day that I wasn't alone, but that plan was shot to hell this morning. It was embarassing enough to be told that the date wasn't going to happen, right in the middle of a crowded coffee shop, but the fact that I was holding a single flower while it all happened seemed to make it that much worse. She didn't give me a reason, but at this point I just wanted to leave so I walked out and gave the flower to another woman and I went to work. I mean, I was just getting to that point where I seemed almost...happy. I went against all my reason of expecting the worst so I am never dissapointedand this is what happened...I get Crushed and it hurts that much worse because for once I was hoping for the best. Never again. I shall return to my pessimistic ways and never look back and as for dating, screw that. Someone I know really well has got it right...No commitments...No attachments...not anymore. Time to put back on my armor and never take it off again.
Sorry for the depression, but it was bound to happen. Maybe soon I'll have something good to write.
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Sorry J. You know what I say "shit happens". Girls can be real bitches sometimes. But I also say, "When one door closes, another one will open". Corny I know, but true.
j its your bro, always hope for the best but expect the worst. Its the best of both. some say this is negative thinking, but i call it being a realist. Like mom said shit happens, so why fight it. just live your life!!
HEY,
yOU KNOW i CAN'T KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT :) The first thing that popped into my head was though you were going through such grief, whoever got the flower whether freind or stranger was more than likely happier for it. Strange isn't. Wayne...
I don't know what's up with Angie's name being in the heading:)
Jay, it sounds like you need to take a 1hr plain ride until you hit the pacific. Because big bro can help you get through this the best way possible. You think last time was good. Just wait, the next time will be bigger, better, and longer. come on over and walk the walk cause you ain't seen nothin yet!!!
Yes I am posting. Jay the only fun thing to do when you are in that situation is switch it. You are already embarrased so turn it on her. Do something completely ridiculous that is funny for everyone else and extremely embarrasing for her. Get down on your knees a cry to the heavens for her to take you back because you are sorry that you nailed her sister and gave her an std.
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